Monday, October 20, 2014

Crossroads



 (Crossroads), is the first song on my CD.  The first verse is; in the mirror I stop and stare, I wonder now, who's really there. I think I know who I am at times, but then I find, another me, another mind.  This refers to having a multiple personality.  A multiple personality doesn't mean you're not aware of what's going on, it simply means that you're affected by forces beyond your control.  People affected by this disorder are often bewildered as to why they reacted in the manner in which they did.  When this alter ego/personality comes forward, it robs the individual of their own volition and their desired behavior. In this altered state, it often even surprises themselves.  Under these circumstances their behavior leads them to regret and guilt. Therefore, (another me, another mind.)

The chorus describes the fear and frustration one feels when trying to discover and understand the forces that are upon them.  Perhaps the most terrifying part is the strong compulsion you feel when the alter egos manifest themselves.   The second verse reads; I turn away in fear at times, when I find, another will. And yet at quiet moments ask, what's inside, what is me, is it real?  This verse talks about the fear we feel in trying to face our demons. At best, it's a journey of confusion, regrets and struggle.

And so the song is a depiction of one's struggle to overcome the effects of tramatic childhood abuse.
Each one of us react differently in different social situations, for as the poet Shakespeare said, "All the world's a stage and all the men and women merely actors.  They have their exits and their entrances and each man in his day plays many rolls, his acts being seven ages." But this not the type of roll I'm talking about when I speak of "multiple personalty."  These are not of our own choice but those of damaged alter egos who hold dark and dysfunctional behaviors.  


And finally the last words of the song deliver the message--in spite of our best efforts, we need the help of our Heavenly Father to finally become whole.


Wednesday, October 8, 2014

W.T. Hyde Is "Popp"ing In On The Radio In CA

Today I had the opportunity of being on air with Mary Jane Popp.

Mary Jane Popp hosts The KAHI Noon News and Poppoff with Mary Jane Popp. Poppoff is a fast-paced Magazine Radio Show dedicated to keeping you on the cutting edge of today’s hot button issues. Poppoff says what it does and does what it says. It’s energetic, upbeat, entertaining, and motivational. From the inner to the outer self, Poppoff takes you to a new dimension in Radio.
You can access Mary Jane's blog by clicking here.


We have posted the interview with Mary Jane on our Facebook page and also our YouTube channel. 

Sunday, October 5, 2014

COUNTING HORSES

 Counting Horses is the name of a book that I have written.  It's also the name of a CD that I wrote and performed.  You can learn more about both by going to my website, counting horses.com.  It was a concept project designed to inform people about the horrors of abuse. It's my story. The book is difficult to read since it speaks of man's inhumanity to children. The music is a little softer but still address the same subject.  Both the book and the CD are basically divided into three parts. The first part talks about the abuse, second, the consequences and third a message of healing.  Why did I take on the project? That's a good question. The answer in part is that I needed to do it for my own healing.  A close second was to let people know that they're not alone if similar things have happened to them.I feel the definition of loneliness is not the absence of people but the absence of understanding.  When we connect with someone through understanding we can influence them for good. This is my desire.  A great deal of healing is taking place in my life though I'm  still not completely whole.  This will probably be a lifelong journey.  My message: if I can do it so can you.  I am sorry if similar things have happened in your own life. I pray that you're getting the help you need.I hope my book and music can assist you on your journey.  I'm willing to do whatever I can for any of you.